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It has been quite some time since I've even LOOKED at this blog let alone post on it, but I've been in a writing mood lately so *shrug* I wrote this poem today.

**disclaimer** - I am not this depressed but the finger's did the type'n and this is what I came up with.

Where has my happiness gone
A joyous fa├žade has taken its place
I know not when they switched
I am at the point where I hardly know the difference

It has vanished
Do I even miss it?
I can not tell
Nothing penetrates this new shell
Old memories erased
Leaving emptiness in its place

The question must be asked
Was I ever happy in the first place?

I know I've said it before but I'll say it again, I will update this blog more.....


I keep trying to find out WHO I AM...and I can't get a grasp on it. So I figure the best way would be to make a list and see if it helps.....

I'm the kind of person that doesn't expect much, if you don't expect much you can't be disappointed.

I'm the kind of person that holds things in and lets them fester instead of confronting the problem head on.

I'm the kind of person that can cry at the drop of a dime.

I'm the kind of person that smiles even though half the the time I don't want to.

I'm the kind of person that dreams big but plans small.

I'm the kind of person that will love you to death until you piss me off and then our relationship will never be the same.

I'm the kind of person that doesn't get angry too often.

I'm the kind of person that thinks before I speak.

I'm also the kind of person that thinks and worries too much.

So this list isn't complete it's just a starting point on my journey to find out exactly who I am...Do you know who you are? And do you even care?


Needed a little more inspiration again today...

"Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude
toward's us"

Let's work on being happy...


So I'm going to stop saying daily quote because of course this ish ain't always daily, lol. But this morning I was in need of quote to help me get through the day ( i know the day just started but it's one of those mornings). I am the kind of person to always complain about the something and I'm trying to work on the fault I have (it's not attractive) so this quote helped me somewhat. I needed to read this

"Our life's a stage, a comedy: either learn to play and take it lightly, or bear its troubles patiently"

I feel slightly better....

Daily Quote

My hurts. It's been hurting since yesterday, it is one of those nagging headaches that linger to make you feel just really crappy. Like I need help in that department, anyway this quote usually makes me feel better

" Most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be"

~Abraham Lincoln

Time to make up my mind.

For most the score starts off tied 0-0, no one yet has the advantage. But for others they enter the game unlucky and already down by a large amount. This game has two halves and four quarters like most games, but that isn't where the similarities end. But this game is not like anything you have ever seen or been a part of before and you are not lucky enough to experience again.

The first quarter is usually the hardest, trying to to feel out your opponent and figure out exactly what it's strengths are and what weakness you have. But this opponent has faced many a worthy adversary in it's time and rarely if at all can anyone say they have beaten it. Everyone comes into the game a rookie, some leave the game before they think it's their time and other's get the chance to play until the coach tells then to come out. Like with any game there are fouls and mistakes, but if you are lucky you have a good supporting cast to help you get through the game.

This game however can not be played by one person however, you will need your teammates to help and assist you through the rough quarters. And when your opponent takes the lead, for it will most certainly take a lead you will need to rely heavily on your team. As with any game though it comes down having a good game plan and strategy, though the outcome of this game is already determined but the way you play lies in your hands.

Life is the biggest game in the world, how do you play it?

Daily Quote

"If you have anything really valuable to contribute to the world it will come through the expression of your own personality, that single spark of divinity that sets you off and makes you different from every other living creature"

- Bruce Barton

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I figure if I type it enough times I'll do it. If I say it, it shall come to pass. Another one of my outlooks for 2009. We shall see how it works. Oh and I think I should finish my short-story too, lol.